Saturday, March 13, 2010
Surprise, indeed.
okay, maybe ive lost all sense to feel sad.
i just feel... i don't know, empty?
After my mum told me that my dad was diagnosed with cancer,
and that i should behave myself.
You know, its a good way, calling me out to take the tou hua to eat and breaking the news to me.
After that i seriously don't know what to do, was watching my movie half way you know.
Tried to watch anime to forget about it, but it just didnt work..
Then i find myself looking through wikipedia for methods of curing, and then..
Seriously, i dont know how to feel now, i dont know what i should do, my mind keeps flashing me and my mum crying if i went to talk to her, i don't want that.
This kinda sucks, just now while walking to my grandma house, was thinking if something big will change my life,
then this thought of someone dying came to my mind, and i just brushed it aside.
Seriously, ive been thinking why issit my dad, why not me?
I dont know why i thought this way alright.
Dammit, being unable to help is just like being useless, Lord God, what should i do?
i'll just have faith in you lord, hold my heart tight,
don't let it drop to the never ending depths of sadness, kay?
Seriously, i don't think i can sleep tonight,
my brain will think think and think, as if i have the cure.
Well, just calling out to everyone, up to you though, to pray for my dad.
I know its typical when someone's friend, parents or relatives was diagnosed with something,
and they always ask to pray, but yea here i am in this position,
so just a thanks in advance for everything if you have done any.
till here then, no mood to further post>.<
haha, see you, guys!
au voir*
you, you're all that i want,
you're all that i need,
you are my everything.
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so just a thanks in advance for everything if you have done any.
