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Hello people! my name is chongxin, just call me cx. I love music alot, and i play the bass in my band. I hate studying complicated stuffs,
but im in aeronautical and aerospace tech course in NYP. I love my friends and everyone as they make my world go round.
Im also A christian, and i seriously hope that i can be a good testimonial for others.
Also tell me you love me and i'll love you back many times more, till my deathbed.(lol)
I love to sleep too, but i dont get much nowadays.
My dream is perform in a pub and do small studio gigs.
So,
Hope you enjoy your stay here anyway.
hehe, okay, darn this.
Dad is going under the knife on april 1st, yeah hopefully the medical humanoid knows what stage issit and all this will just end=D
moving onnnnnnnnnnnn, okay i don't know what to post after so long.
oh and that blasted sarah, what bloody big mouth you have, shane you better keep her down!!x@#%#*&
ah tell you guys what,
tell you guys what i miss mostttttt.
i miss looking at the dark never-ending black skies with shiny dots everywhere.
Since after i moved into this square concrete buildings surrounded by flats.
And its raining almost everyday now, wish i have a car T.T during this kinda weather.
And i miss my friends, everyone, all of them, the noise makers, the punks, the idiots, the nerds, the muscle-brands, the specs and many others. wth, maybe we all should taunt one night and go all over singapore, won't be quiet eh?
I miss jamming too and gigs! Dammit that taufik went to join OGL camp, now ruin everything, that amin too.
Maybe i should start another one, with ayl and adit, and it would be the AAC band=D(first letters of our names btw)
maybe get a jap singer(their vocals are nioce******) and an american second-vocals/guitarist and then a french guitarist and me the bassit and finally an african drummer, cool man. LOL.
i miss composing songs together, the songs i compose are crappp, *quote# "Dan: your songs are full of crap mushy can say. You suit those errr.. slow rock bands, but still, with these??? nah."
So i think im better off in a group, maybe slowly from there, you know?
i personally thinks, i dont have to make it big, if people love my songs, thats enough=D hope that day comes, playing and performing in pubs, people singing along, WOOOHOOOO, cant wait.
*NOTE THIS*, i will continue as a musician even after leaving education, even after finding a job,
even after getting married, even after having children(thats if im married, lol),
even after im passed 50 years old, note this people.(woo serious eh)
AH of course, I miss my delicious red wine too, note(not to drink too much, no want cancer!)
i should have thrown away that jack daniels whisky, smells and taste like 12yrs stored of vormit, who want it btw? i give it to you.
oooh and finally, i miss someone caring for me, well that does not
include my grandmother okay! she is over caring, sometimes drives me mad, but thats fine,
but still no including her:x
nah no seriously, seriously enough.
Brotherly love feels gay, lol, i "pat" my bro once in awhile
and kick him aside most of the time,
but he is still chubby like a baby, wth.
okay truthfully im not so bad, i just think he needs more freedom,
to express himself so when he grows up
he can meet all sorts of people and not be
tied down by my parents like ME, dammit.
Well that was the past.
Ah fine, i'll leave caring to God's hands.
okay, maybe ive lost all sense to feel sad.
i just feel... i don't know, empty?
After my mum told me that my dad was diagnosed with cancer,
and that i should behave myself.
You know, its a good way, calling me out to take the tou hua to eat and breaking the news to me.
After that i seriously don't know what to do, was watching my movie half way you know.
Tried to watch anime to forget about it, but it just didnt work..
Then i find myself looking through wikipedia for methods of curing, and then..
Seriously, i dont know how to feel now, i dont know what i should do, my mind keeps flashing me and my mum crying if i went to talk to her, i don't want that.
This kinda sucks, just now while walking to my grandma house, was thinking if something big will change my life,
then this thought of someone dying came to my mind, and i just brushed it aside.
Seriously, ive been thinking why issit my dad, why not me?
I dont know why i thought this way alright.
Dammit, being unable to help is just like being useless, Lord God, what should i do?
i'll just have faith in you lord, hold my heart tight,
don't let it drop to the never ending depths of sadness, kay?
Seriously, i don't think i can sleep tonight,
my brain will think think and think, as if i have the cure.
Well, just calling out to everyone, up to you though, to pray for my dad.
I know its typical when someone's friend, parents or relatives was diagnosed with something,
and they always ask to pray, but yea here i am in this position, so just a thanks in advance for everything if you have done any.
till here then, no mood to further post>.<
haha, see you, guys!
au voir*
you, you're all that i want, you're all that i need, you are my everything.
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Tuesday, March 9, 2010
mix feellings, messed up.
I've just finished this book, well nicholas sparks always know how to tug at reader's heartstrings.
It made my tears flow down at times like someone is pressing the "ON" "OFF" button at my heart.
Seriously, this book is a book you would want to read, although i had problems continuing reading the last few chapters.
Such a bittersweet story, is one that you won't forget soon enough, note* if you want the book, i can lend it to you(:*
At times i wish i was this boy in the book, but at times i don't, its kind of complicated.
Testing on our faith like that, Lord you are incredible.
Okay you people may not know this, but with casual friends, i try not to show my soft self, like if you are bringing me to a sad depressing movie or a "love ending" kinda movie, i would usually go with my close friends, i don't want others to see tears of sadness or happiness in my eyes(wtf)=X
And2, i tend to watch or read books as if im part of the movie, like a passerby or something.
I usually try to understand why they do this, how are their feellings, or stuff like that. Yeah.
I like these kinda movies or books, but can be hard flipping to the next page.
okay today i went to watch this, Dear John, another by Nicholas Sparks.
Its a nice movie, and i watched it with my mates not closest, but yeah.
Well, i watched with them because they are noisy everywhere, even in theatres, so won't give in to my heart sentiments so easily, although this deprived me of watching the movie properly.
Well except for the ending, this movie is kinda nice to watch, so if any bad reviews, i guess its bout the ending.
Okay enough with heartstrings and tragic, love stuffs.
This! have any of you guys watched this?
Its hilariously funny, super funny to the core and its season 3 now.
Ive just watched finished it, yeah maybe slow, but whats the rush?
Well, for all you may know, Smart is the new sexy, well, i try to be smart sometimes, but im not sexyXP
Moving on.
Yeah well, ive yet to watch Alice In Wonderland, maybe i should watch it with alice, lol.
All my friends have CCA in schools and commitments..
WTH, and i need a job, but first, settle all the stuffs i wanna do first!
So will someone just watch with me? Maybe i'll get my sec school friends, their kind of a distance away.
Oh guess what, tomorrow, or rather today, is my little brothers birthday!
Hope he likes the gift i got for him though, im gonna write a card to him, little kids way=D!
Oh and my dad, he has some kind of illness, will be praying for him, together with my sis and relatives at 10am. Although we are seperated, God will still hear our prayers(: In Him we trust.
Well lets see what ive learnt today, alot of things though, hmm,
hopefully, i'll change for a better person,
hopefully. Action speaks louder than words,
remember that you idiot(me).
Alright till here.
I always say i pray for you, but do you know what is in my prayer for you?
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Saturday, March 6, 2010
a walk to remember?
i need to change my oldddddddddddd laptop!
can literally just throw my laptop into the dumpster now(LOL)
It crashed yesterday like twice, memory dumping..
So getting a job now is critical, i went to nike and yamaha already,
hopefully i get either job and make it long term ._.
so i can get stuffs i want, like a electric guitar from gibson!
SWEET AINT IT?
okay now, for the record, ive finished animes after animes,
movies after movies, serials after serials.
My brain is gonna explode if i dont stop now >.<
I dont know if its just me, but i gotta take breaks from anime,
enough of fantasies that dont come through and cute high pitch voices of girls,
and boys that out of no where became a hero. lol.
So kinda usually change the genres here and there.
oh new season of Lost is out, final season i guess, abit slow, but still alright =D
Still looking for new dramas to watch though, OHH new season of The Big Bang Theory!
ive yet to watch it!
Dont know how the hell i found time to watch when im always out o.o
Seriously, im thinking of studying if i cant get a job,
for your info i dont want a waiter job, it sucks!
Either i study or take up classes, maybe some music classes,
or some Aeronautical studies(OMFG you serious?)
okay from now on im gonna put at least a pic in my post,
to make it less plain(:
So how are you people holding out for the holidays?
Got some job recommendation?(:
the neon lights and headlight from the cars
started a symphony,
and with the wind behind my back... im chilling here, gimme a jacket you idiot!
YES! exams are finally over! haha.
and since monday after my paper, ive watched 5 movies!
what a way to celebrate my temporary freedom..
Ah well some complications came up too, and kinda irritated me.
So "they" picked tomorrow or rather today, its wednesday now right?
anyway, they picked today to sort out all the complications and confusion.
Well i didnt want to go, cause it might just ruin my day, but well, just go lah, sian.
Anyway, tomorrow im going to indonesian house! wooot, cant wait to bring down the house.(haha)
hopefully more will turn up after tomorrow's "talk"(:
oh and i seriously want to play some songs up on a stage again.
TAUFIK! organise a gig leh, im losing my touch:x LOL
and i will invite everyone, even if ive to pay for everyone's ticket! wooooot, just jokinggg.
Dammit i seriously want to work now, im already bored and its only been 1 day after my holidays started.
Better do something this holiday, be frking productive man, CX!
im gonna try my luck at yamaha and nike:D
okay, time to sleep, tomorrow big day(:
wish me luck!(for what?..)
i want people to sing my music, like i sing yours. i want people to play my music, like i play yours. i want to love you, like i love... who?
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